The Truth of Recovery
- Hana.
- Sep 21, 2016
- 2 min read
Hello Reader,
You're most likely reading this if you are struggling with recovery or know someone who is. I will warn you; this post won't be very positive throughout, but it's the truth (#KeepingItReal soz).
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The thing is, recovery from an eating disorder isn't smooth. No matter how much you want it to be, it isn't.
There will be tears. Weight gain (restoration) is unavoidable. Part of me wants to recover whilst still holding on to certain behaviours (I can restore weight on safe foods technically....I think we all know that this is what's known as quasi recovery). I could reach a healthy BMI whilst still clinging onto parts of my ED...but this won't be beneficial. I know so...
It's hard being in a place where there are so many others with an ED...it makes you forget what's normal. There is a sense of competition with an eating disorder. It's hard making friends in an inpatient (or day patient) setting, as there is always a risk that the friendship being based on an ED is harmful. What happens when one party relapses?
By no means is this meant to trigger anyone....it's merely the truth (well it's basically me venting my frustration haha!)
Something that's important to remember is that ultimately no one can recover for you....YOU have to do it for you. Sometimes it's hard; but we need to suck it up and move on; follow your meal plan and weight restore...get your life back because you're only shooting yourself in the foot if you give in to the ED.
Please take care of yourself and make the RIGHT choice.
Hana x